i like a guy before i met him but the guy didn't seem to like me. I like the guy for his looks and also his passion for his studies. However, i gave up after a while as i don't feel comfortable with girls being the one taking the initiative. I'm starting to share more of my personal feelings in my blog as someone told me before that my friends are more interested in knowing my personal life as compared to photos. Anyway, year 2009 will be over soon and i hope everyone will be able to achieve their goals in the new year.

his friends think that he is gullible and are scared that he will be cheated...omg...i don't know whether he is gullible but you can't really tell by knowing people for a short time right? I only know that he has a good memory, has a very bad sense of direction, not choosy when shopping and always keep quiet when he is angry (makes me damn pissed off when he do that). Anyway, i think that it is really funny when his friends are afraid of him being cheated. I'm younger than him, do you think i am able to cheat him even if i want to? I won't cheat people's feelings. -.-"

added a few of my favourite songs into my blog...hope you will like it too...

I'm almost finishing my body lotion! happy to finish it to the last bit because i always tend to waste them in the past. Now I'll squeeze out every last bit of them. Lol. Wastage is bad....btw..i bought it for less than $2...cheap and good...

hi weini...here are some websites that u can sell clothes
--> www.cozycot.com (i sold a dress at cozycot.com previously but i lied about it being brand new as i only wore it once. I washed it and wrapped it in a plastic bag before mailing it out too. Sold it at quite a low price...but better than selling to 'garang guni')
--> www.yahoo.com.sg (go to the shopping section on the left hand side of the website....and it will direct you to gmarket.com. I only bought things there before..but didn't sell anything there before because it is more complicated for sellers to register as they need to safeguard the interests of buyers. You'll have to give them bank account details, etc. But i kinda like to shop at gmarket because the helpdesk are friendly and there will be a delivery status to check whether the person has already mailed the item out.)
--> www.wholivesnearyou.com (if you still have the account...i sold quite a number of items there...but people will usually buy more IT products online instead of buying clothes online. Clothes are not as easy to sell as compared to IT products. I would say that the success rate of selling clothes online= 0 to 30%)
--> you can also go online and search for people selling clothes e.g blogspots. Coz they might be willing to swap the items.
--> some tips to sell it faster= post a nice picture and keep posting the entry over and over again so that there is a higher chance of people viewing it. Remember to add your contact details too.

i'm writing the christmas card for jieyi now...will be passing her the christmas present tml... :D

browsing through the website and i recommended a few places to celebrate his belated birthday.....I'm going to treat him this time....now waiting for him to choose between miss clarity cafe, the mind cafe and watami Japanese restaurant.

activities that i missed out when i'm sick....
--> dinner with weishan
--> zoo with jieyi
--> celebrating his birthday
--> pool with guan hui
--> badminton with peixian (peixian said that she got a very very small birthday present for me...but i'm already very happy coz it's the thought that counts....and not the monetary value of the present)
--> shereen + shavonne (cousin) birthday celebration with hui fang and chi ching
--> outing with wen qing (she bought me a birthday present...so nice of her...)

awaiting
--> outing with xin mei (cousin) next week....shopping spree!
--> outing with ying jie and pek hwa next week! gathering!weeeeeee

i'm quite bored at home so went to edit some photos that he showed me....lol...

i think that i need to learn to take care of myself and not depending on others to take care of me...and i think that i should not treat people like maid...

anyway, just a random thought--> i cannot stand it when he always keep quiet when he is angry...really cannot stand it...coz i will thrash it out when i'm angry but he will just keep quiet....damn irritating...i rather he will voice it out or just scold me....hate it when he just keeps quiet....

i'm so used to living with my parents and i will be super unhappy if my grandmother ever moves in with us....the worse thing that could happen= i'll move out...i don't want our peace to be disrupted....we are already staying in the same block and we can go over to her house for dinner everyday but i can't accept it if she wants to stay with us...if my parents insist, i will tell them that they can move over to stay with my grandmother and i can stay alone in my house....however, i don't mind if it's my mum's mum though....and i don't mind if my grandmother is someone nice and friendly e.g my mum's mum and jieyi's grandparents...

my grandmother told us to sell our house and then go over to stay with her when we are really staying at the same block! omg! my mum rejected her and she said that she wanna move over to our place since my cousins are moving out...omg...i will have strong objections....no way! we are already staying in the same block...why do we need to stay in the same house? lol

haiz.....his birthday is tomorrow and i promised him to celebrate it with him but i'm still feeling very sick now...i told him that i sound like an old lady and so he called me yesterday night....and then guess what he did? He kept laughing at my voice...omg....evil....anyway he said that we can postpone the birthday celebration if i still haven't recover by then....haiz....feel quite bad that i have to fall sick now....

i'm still on my bed this morning when i heard someone knocking on the door and my mum opening the door.....then after a while, my mum said weini bought a present for me and gave it to me...and i love the present alot! super nice!

the hand made card and the specially designed cup....weini said she asked her brother to draw it and she was the one who told him what she wanted....

hmmm...weini...i think mums are like that....my mum called me to ask me to go home early when i'm out sometimes too....though it's very irritating sometimes...

to me the best christmas party= a party where everyone prepare some food themselves....

rocky loves playing the toy car...lol

us... -.-"

went to sun with moon and the central for christmas dinner on christmas eve...

he treated me to all this yummy food...

i ate this

he ate this

there is a collagen ball and it will melt slowly...so amazing to see it melt...however, i think that i would like it better if the soup is less salty...


he ate this...so cheesy...

both of us ordered the christmas set dinner so we had about the same food...

clarke quay!

like what i wrote in my facebook,

being 21 to me= more freedom, more responsibilities, a new life stage, learning to choose someone who will be accepted by my family (hope i will be more logical and less emotional), preparing to start school, graduating and looking for a job, working and hopefully able to support my parents, etc, etc...it's easy to just play and have fun but it's difficult and there are many obstacles if you want to succeed in life..

i think learning to choose someone who will be accepted by my family is really important and it's also hard for me to accept someone who doesn't have a plan in life too...or maybe i just think that it's very attractive when a guy is serious in his work....

christmas is a season for giving! hohoho!bought many presents for friends and relatives....mostly for cousins. You will only be truly happy when you give without expecting anything in return...merry christmas everyone! cheers.....

his company's christmas dinner at Ritz Carlton...

we went to yoshinoya to eat before going for the annual dinner....also went to marina square to 'catch' bears....

one of my favourite dish....prawns with wasabi sauce....yummy...
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there was lucky draws for the staff and lucky draws and christmas presents for everyone

there was staff from melbourne, indonesia, etc...and everyone gave out presents at the end of the day...

got this from a lucky draw and i gave it to my dad...went back in a cab after the christmas dinner...reached home at around 12.30am...

i don't like it when my mum always complains that i go out almost everyday....she kept asking who am i going out with.... -.-" and i always just tell her a random name.....no point asking me something when i don't wanna say....

my mum wanted to borrow my handphone because she is going out today and when i refused, she said that i'm selfish....i don't know why she kept insisting on using my phone when i have already bought a handphone for her previously and that i need my handphone when i go out....i don't mind lending her everything and anything except my handphone and laptop....

He invited me to his company's christmas dinner at ritz-carlton....so i'm going there tomorrow...

i'm sick and tired of wearing dress....so i guess i will be wearing more jeans in the future......weeee......just bought a pair of jeans from new look at somerset 313. like the jeans there.....i wear size 8....

quite touched when he bought 'siew mai' for me from bishan yesterday night when i told him that my teeth still hurts and that i can't really chew hard food......i'm quite touched because he ended school at 8+ at clarke quay area and then he asked me what kinda food do i want before going down to bishan to buy the last five pieces of 'siew mai' and then giving it to me under my block....i feel quite bad for bullying him all the time and i doubt i will let him do that all the time...don't wanna treat him like maid....and hey....i'm nice to him sometimes too....went to many places to search for his birthday present before deciding which one to buy.....went to suntec city, orchard and then bugis....sometimes i feel like we are strangers....because usually strangers are nicer and more polite to each other....

his birthday falls in december too and so i bought a birthday present for him....picard key pouch...because he told me he wanted a key pouch. I went around choosing for a long time before deciding to buy a picard key pouch because the design and quality are better....

this is what i chose after a long time...quite expensive! $49.90...i didn't buy any christmas present for him because i'm quite broke already. I didn't work this holiday...that's why...

i love wearing jacket...because it gives me a sense of security....anyone feel the same way as me too?

was chatting on the phone with him last night and he said that people think that he looks younger than his actual age....he said that he looks 23 or 24 years old and i told him not to day dream....told him that one of his photo look very act cool (act cool means not cool but trying to act cool) and another photo look very perverted....and that he only got one decent and normal photo, which is a group photo taken with his friends. Then, he told me that the lighting is not good and that is why the photo did not turn out well. After that, he asked me whether he will look better with specs and i said maybe....hmmm...i seriously don't know why guys want to look younger....i thought only girls do that? hmmm...anyway, i felt much better after telling him what happened yesterday...it's hard for me to bottle up everything and i need to get it out of my system....phew....

xin mei cousin and her family is not celebrating christmas with us....a bit disappointing to hear that...since we have always celebrated our birthdays and christmas together on 25 dec every year....in fact, i think that it is very disappointing coz i have always put all other commitments aside...even when my ex bf complained that i never spend christmas with him. this shows how much i value my family ties when i always spend the most important day of my life with them....haiz...and best part= she didn't tell me that she is not celebrating with us even though we have already planned to hold a christmas party...her mum didn't say anything about going overseas too...haiz...i wonder what will happen if i tell my mum tomorrow...i think that my xiao yi doesn't know this too....since she msged everyone that we are celebrating 3 birthdays + christmas together...i mean...shouldn't they tell us that they are not celebrating with us when we are planning for my cousin's birthday as well? we are organizing a birthday party for xiang xiang cousin as well...but they didn't tell us anything even when they already know that xiao yi (aunt) is already preparing.....are they going to tell us after we have already bought the present, cake and cooked everything? haiz....i only found out after i asked her today....haiz....celebrating christmas together shows the family unity...and now...haiz...i think i would not be so disappointed if she told me personally that she and her family is not celebrating with us....where did the sense of responsibility go? can anyone understand how i feel? just imagine someone organizing a birthday party for the birthday boy and yet, everyone else will be going except the birthday boy and his family....which is xiang xiang in this case...

i went for my dental appointment today and then went shopping alone after that...bought many accessories....bought four earrings and one necklace...weee....happy...also bought two new dresses for _____ (haven't decide when to wear it though). Got the dresses at a very amazing price....lots of discount because of year end sale + christmas sale. I might be wearing the dresses for chinese new year too. I haven't decide when to wear it. I wanna shop for my chinese new year clothes earlier because i don't wanna end up doing what i did last year. I was still shopping for my chinese new year clothes on new year eve last year. lol.

This is what i do after bathing...maybe that's why i need a long time to prepare before going out. Hair serum for dry hair, face moisturiser , foundation, deodorant, body lotion. However, sometimes i'm lazy to use all of them...lol. But! i realised that exercising regularly is important too and helps to tone up your body

my exercise for last week= swam 8 laps....i went swimming at night and i have the whole pool by myself...how nice! lol...
my exercise for this week= walk home from ang mo kio central...about 5 bus stops away + lot's of shopping (counted also right? :x)....i still prefer swimming over walking....

i think i cannot be lazy....or else body will become soft soft....especially tummy area....

wanted to top up my farecard by $10 and i'm quite surprised when he took out his atm card to top up for me.....then, i was about to return him the $10 when i found out that he actually topped up $40 in my ez-link card....and yet he kept quiet and just accepted the $10 as if nothing happened...luckily i'm quite observant and saw it just now.....took out another $30 to return him and he kept pushing it away.....then he surprises me when he said he don't want me to keep on topping up $10 all the times and that i can use the farecard to go out more often with him...

then, he asked me to choose a pair of spectacles for him and it surprises me again....then, i asked him whether he really likes wearing spectacles and that he don't have to do it to please me....this is because i think that guys look cute with specs....then, he told me don't know...before saying that he has always wanted a pair of spectacles for himself....after that, he bought the specs that i've chosen for him and he will be collecting it after 2 days....

it's such a surprising day today....

today is the day when i throw away all the things given by my ex bf...coz he is jealous that i always sing praises of my ex bf in front of him...at least i threw everything away except two bags, a pair of high heels, my hp and jewelleries...or should i throw them away as well? will it be wasting money? i think i'm willing to throw everything away except the expensive stuff...i made the decision because he said
--> im getting specs to look more docile
--> im thinking of changing my wardrobe to brighter tones
--> i cannot help but think that "i need to observe you" is just an excuse for u to keep ur options open
--> dun want to accept my present -- another excuse to make urself less guilty in case u wanna change options
--> he feels very insecure

i'm confused because i don't know whether to judge people by their cover....here's a comparison of me and him...

him:
looks fierce
looks dao
looks beng
doesn't look like a good guy....but....
likes jazz or classical music
doesn't club or go pub
quite a gentleman
good temper
patient
caring
brings umbrella
seldom go shopping
doesn't have a very good sense of direction in shopping centres
likes watching romance movies? it's true...but omg...hmmmm
always try to copy what i eat and do....e.g i 'sa jiao' to him coz i wanna win at poker and then he tried to 'sa jiao' to me in the same manner when he wants to meet me that day....then i told him...please don't make me puke....very disgusting when you 'sa jiao'...coz it's really very disgusting...

me:
likes hip hop/r & b
club or pub once in a blue moon
normal temper....but easy to flare up sometimes
impatient
sometimes caring sometimes not
doesn't bring umbrella
always go shopping
better sense of direction in shopping centres as compared to him...
likes watching thriller, adventure and horror

isn't it so confusing? i'm quite against his looks but sometimes i close my eyes and i think that his character is quite okay...he told me that his friends always ask whether we are together and they think that i'm playing hard to get...but i told him i'm not playing hard to get...just that i wanna understand him better and that it's very confusing because of his looks....he is quite upset because i criticise his looks (though i never say that he is ugly...he is not ugly...just normal)....but i think he must be quite upset as i always say his looks are misleading....i don't know...maybe i really judge people by their cover? but u cannot blame me for misunderstanding him right? because he really doesn't look like a good guy....

rooftop view from iluma bugis....

Dad gave me $50 to shop for my christmas present and so i bought a clutch for myself...happy...lol...bought it from suntec city....newlook...it's a uk shop.... http://www.newlook.co.uk/navigation/homepage.aspx

bought this at takashimaya....it's yummy and the portion is alot too...

to weini--> ooo...erm....i didn't really persuade her to let me go out but rather i just told her that i'm going out that day....maybe she allows me to go out because she knows that i play at the right time and study at the right time.....e.g i don't go out when i have a project to do or when exams are coming soon....i think mums will allow it if you are able to show her that you are mature and sensible enough to do the right things at the right time....


told her that i'm going clubbing that day and i told her that i'm the one who asked my friends along because the admission is free for ladies...told her that there will be lots of nice music and that we are going there to dance...and that my cousin went there before....told her that it's not a sleazy place and no one will smoke...unless it's in the smoking area....told her that there will be police officers checking the place and that it is safe.....

have been going out with him for many times already but i still feel that there is something missing or lacking...i don't know what is it though...his friends kept teasing him that i'm his gf -.-" ...i don't want to be attached so soon because i wanna observe him and to see whether we can really get along well with each other...i don't wanna rush into a relationship right now....maybe i will rush into a relationship if i'm still single by 30 years old...lol....i really think that he doesn't look like a good guy....looks are really misleading sometimes....he doesn't seem like a caring guy, guy with lots of patience, guy with good temper....but so far he has shown that he is quite caring and has a good temper....that is so weird....i really find it very weird...he doesn't look like someone with good temper but he has never gotten angry with me and he is willing to entertain himself and wait for me for many hours.... e.g he is willing to wait 2 hours just to see me for 2 hours...and he doesn't seem pissed off when i'm late...seems quite dumb sometimes but he told me that he doesn't have a gf before...i say he is quite dumb because he doesn't get angry when i'm late, willing to wait for me, willing to spend on me, give in to me most of the times, always remember what i've said to him and best part, doesn't control what i wear....

clubbing at party factory on their 1st anniversary...managed to get elaine, weishan and jieyi to go and elaine brought her friend along too...enjoyed myself but i guess it would be even more enjoyable if more people go...

i need about 1 hour to prepare myself before going out if i'm really in the mood to dress up....here's what i always do--> lock the room, close the curtains, then bath for 30 minutes, dry myself, then apply moisturiser, then apply face lotion and powder, then blow dry my hair,put on contact lens, then keep looking at the mirror over and over again...sometimes i'll even change on different outfits until i'm satisfied with myself....and i'll often make myself very tired because of this...sometimes i'll keep changing because i can't make up my mind what to wear....therefore, nowadays i'll just choose something and stick to it...it's less tiring that way....

Just came home from Quarubar at Dempsey hill and i enjoyed myself today...we had dinner at sakae sushi at orchard before taking a cab to dempsey hill for some drinks...i tried both the drinks but i prefer the second one...prefer the light and fruity taste...i must say that Dempsey hill is a very nice place and i don't know why but a thought came across my mind while i'm a Dempsey Hill...i wanted to share the drinks with jieyi and i'm sure she will like the drinks and the place as well...:)

went on a date with him(friend's friend and i first met him at a pool hall) to sentosa on saturday and he asked me which part of sentosa i wanna go but i can't make up my mind....so i asked him for suggestions and he suggested going to 4D pirates, followed by 4d extreme log ride....he always treat me when we go out but since he thinks that it's more gentleman and since that he is already working, i'll let him treat me...then i asked him why did he like me and he told me that he like girls that don't look flirty, play pool, not noisy and not tomboyish....and i told him that i'm not a gentle person and i'm quite clumsy and violent....i'm really quite a clumsy person but i feel quite comfortable around him coz i don't have to put on a false personality in front of him....i ever torn my own dress accidentally in front of him(the strap of the dress snapped coz i'm not careful enough...but it didn't drop la..haha), tripped but didn't fall (that's pretty normal...i always tend to trip xx number of times a year coz i'm so used to dragging my feet while walking), wore a very casual with blue stains from other clothes in front of him ( i don't really care coz i want to be comfortable with myself when i don't feel like dressing up), dripped strawberry juice on my skirt ( a tiny bit of it)......i must say that although i always dress ladylike, my character is not as ladylike as it seems....e.g he took out a tissue paper to wipe the seat dry after rain and i told him to take out the brochure and told him to sit on it and don't have to bother about getting dirty....then, we went to another place and i wanted to sit down but he asked me whether i wanna to sit on his bag....then i told him that it's okay and i just sat down on the floor with my dress...i really think that it's okay and that i'm not afraid of dirt or places with no air-con or anything....haha...maybe coz i'm a messy person? hmm...anyway, i told him that we are just dating but not bf/gf coz i need to understand him better first as well as to let him understand me better...


went for the 4d pirates first and we spent 1 minute buying tickets and 30 minutes queing up for the show and i think that they shouldn't make us q up for so long after buying the tickets...furthermore, i think that the show isn't that fantastic and definitely not worth $14.95... i would rate it 5/10 because it's really not my type of show and i find it quite lame....pirates talking and finding treasures and there are special effects from the top of the seat, chairs moving, special effects from bottom of the seat, cold wind....i mean...the show will be interesting for kids (definitely enjoyable for kids)...but definitely not for me...


i prefer the extreme log ride though....i would rate it 8/10 as we get to sit in a capsule with 6 chairs and the capsule will move according to the screen.....i like it because it's exciting and it is definitely safe....perfect for someone who is not a risk taker but is looking for some excitement (me me! i'm not a risk taker)....it's so realistic that i almost forgot that it's not a real rollar coaster...anyway, i think that it's exciting for someone who seldom take a real rollar coaster.....he prefer the 4d pirates as compared to extreme log ride because he prefer the 4d effects from 4 d pirates...