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My mum was talking about marriage today. She said that i should get married before the age of 30. This topic totally scare me off. Although i have a boyfriend but it's just boyfriend and not husband. I can't see him as my husband as he is not what i really want for a husband. I always think that my husband should be a chinese, thrifty, stable job + constantly upgrading himself, nice to me and my family, not scold vulgar language, not smoke and good tempered. I know i shouldn't be saying this in my blog but this is really how i feel. I really think that husband is very different from boyfriends. Husband is one and only but you may have a few boyfriends in your lifetime. I think that my future husband must be able to get along well with my family because i really cherish family ties. The topic really scare me because I'm so afraid of wasting both our time on the relationship. One thing that i hate about him is that he got a very bad temper and is even starting to scold me vulgar language when we quarrel. I admit I'm not a good girlfriend as well as I'm not those caring kinda girlfriend. I realised that i am attracted to guys who appeal to me physically. I think i'm still immature when looking for a boyfriend. I think that my future husband need not be attractive physically but he must nice to me and respect me and my family. I'm really scared when i think of marriage because it is a big thing to me. Starting a family is not only about myself but also about my family, my future children and the second half of my life.